BEING BRUTALLY HONEST ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH
Losing control of your thoughts can send you down a dark path. No matter what anyone says to you – the big black cloud fills your head and it doesn’t fade away easily. You can try and escape most things, most things, except your mind. There’s distraction. But as we all know it’s a temporary measure. There’s no running from racing thoughts of feeling like you can’t, feelings of self doubt, self worth. Thoughts that you may never share with anyone for the fear of being called ‘crazy’. Lets talk about my mental health.
Now if you’d have read my last post ‘five tips for getting your arse back to the gym’ you probably would have thought I was doing well. For me, exercise is a mental break. I believe exercise is key to a happy mind. And that’s what I have been trying to get back into after the recovery from my operation (if you didn’t know I had a diagnostic lap which I talk about here ). The truth is, I’ve been struggling mentally. I feel like I need to write this. To get it off my chest.
The last few weeks mentally for me have been so up and down. My close family and friends don’t even know about the downs, mainly because I avoid talking about the downs. The only person who may know the tip of the iceberg is my other half. I live with him so it would be extremely difficult for me to withdraw from telling him anything. When I’m low I feel like there’s this constant fog in my head. I overthink everything. All I feel like doing is sitting in a slump in my room. Like there’s no point in doing anything. Which obviously just makes it worse. It sends me on a downward spiral. And then I have social media at the touch of a button. Ready to fake being happy. It’s amazing what a front you can put up to the world. Post a photo from the week before and you are good to go. Good to hide behind the internet. To hide your real feelings away.
I don’t want to slip back into my old self. I’ve battled with depression and anxiety in the past. Man when I look back on what I used to be like at my darkest point – I realise how far I’ve come. In 2012 I went through a traumatic experience which turned my life upside down. Only a select number of people know what happened. What followed was something I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. What happened to me I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I wouldn’t leave the house, i’d barely leave my bedroom. I’d have horrific nightmares, I often had to sleep in the same room as family members because I couldn’t bare to be alone. It was truly my lowest point. I had no self confidence, felt worthless and damaged. There was no hope for me, or so I believed. Everyone says this but it’s true. Time heals you. Which is not what you want to hear when you want to be taken out of this black hole. But it definitely helps. Sometimes I have to have a little conversation with my self. To tell myself I need to practice self love. Little steps can amount to bigger changes. Having a bath, putting on a face mask, eating healthy and exercising can really help me, personally. It may not change whats going on in my head but it gives me something to relax about. And I really find eating junk food has a massive impact on me. Same with drinking alcohol. That’s one thing that I massively benefited from when I did the 6 month challenge
MY TIPS ON STAYING ON TOP OF YOUR MENTAL HEALTH
You need to be aware of how you feel. Sort of track your emotions. Having a diary can really help. If you were ill physically you would want to know as soon as you’re getting ill wouldn’t you? That goes for mental health too. When I feel like I’m slipping into a bad patch with my mental health I try and recognise my emotions. Here are some of the things I try my best to practise.
When you think about how you breathe on a daily basis. Like really think about it. It’s kinda crazy. Your body subconciously and conciously breathes for you. Meaning 9 times out of 10 you don’t even take any notice of your breathe. How about every day you give something back to your body. Try and create a calming atmosphere in your bedroom, get some candles and take 5 or 10 minutes to take some deep breathes. You can use this time to meditate too.
MEDITATION & YOGA
Some people talk about yoga as if it’s not exercise at all but I totally disagree. Yoga takes a lot of strength, both physically and mentally. It helps with flexibility, strength, balance and your mind. If you practice a lot it can really help with your mental health.
PAINTING / DRAWING
I know it can be hard to motivate yourself to even getting dressed when in a depressive state but painting and drawing can really have a positive impact on your mind. It’s super therapeutic even if you don’t particularly have skills in it. Remember, practice makes perfect!
SURROUNDING MYSELF WITH PLANTS AND FLOWERS
There’s been studies to suggest plants can have a positive affect on the mind. Plants like lavender are well known for helping you sleep so why not grab yourself a few sprigs, tie a ribbon around them and pop them on your pillow an hour before you’re due to go to bed. Plants can help create a comfortable and safe environment for you. It also gives you something to take care of. Plants need care and attention, just as you do. Focusing on something can help you get out of that hole. And who doesn’t love plants? They’re so pretty!
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I know all of these things don’t always work and if you do feel depressed or anxious visit your GP. These are temporary measures to implement into your life along side medication or counselling. If you’re ever down or low don’t feel lonely you can always chat to me via social media.
If you’ve not read my last post: Health Blogger Awards – I’ve been shortlisted you might not know about my nomination. I’ve been shortlisted in the ‘weight loss or healthy eating blogger of the year‘ category. If you think I deserve to win you can VOTE FOR ME HERE voting closes on the 29th September 2017. I would LOVE it if you could vote 😀 xxxx